At about this time last year I was diagnosed with Panic Disorder (PD). PD is a disorder in the brain which causes the chemicals in your brain to become unbalanced, generally, there isn't enough serotonin. This imbalance in my brain triggers stress more easily than in other people with properly balanced, perfectly normal brains. This stress, in turn, triggers a panic attack; which I've been having a lot of lately. The symptoms of the type of panic attacks I have are: dizziness, heart palpitations, trembling, excessive sweating, nausea, tingling, chills, and the fear of dying. Some of those symptoms I experience regularly, like the excessive sweating and chills. It bothers me that kids at school point out my 'ticks' I get whenever I have a chill or my awesome pit stains. I wear black all the time because the medicines I'm on for my sweating issue don't work as well as they should.
I'm tired of the judging. I can't wear what you wear because I will have it drenched in the underarm areas before first bell.
I'm so tired of doctors offices. I have been to the physicians and cardiologists more times than I can even count this year. I've had over 5 ECG's in a two month time period, and a stress test. I'm done with cords and wires. I'm done with scales. I'm done with getting my blood pressure taken. I'm done with pill popping. I'm done getting three shots every two weeks at an office where they treat me like a felon. I'm done.
I hate that I feel like a hypochondriac because of this disorder. I just wish it would go away.
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I'm sorry to hear that. I don't normally recommend or even bring things like this up, cause I've had good experiences with doctors, but have you looked into alternative medicine? I've heard so many people talk about the wonders of acupuncture and the like. I hope I don't come across as pushy, since I don't know you or your situation. I just want to put the suggestion out there just in case it could help. ;)
ReplyDeleteDon't give up hope or be too hard on yourself. It sounds like you're might be in high school? Well, kids can be cruel and unfortunately don't realize how harmful their comments can be. Try not to take them to heart. Only you and those close to you know what your going through. So just try to ignore them and be who you are! =)
Ok, I'll step off my soap box now. :) I hope, at the very least, you feel better soon.
Yeah, I'm in high school. I haven't tried acupuncture but I've always wanted to just to see if it would help. Usually because of the medicines I'm on I don't have panic attacks but lately I've been working on a lot of big projects and I've had a few.
ReplyDeleteI love my doctor I just hate being in there all the time. Thank you for the kind words though it really means a lot. (: